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Yayyy! I can write again from a happy place looking back on how far I’ve come and how much stronger I am. I can just say “No” and mean it, but still have play fun without sharing my true submissiveness. I know the huge difference now – play is like a massage where I can
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Don’t put limits on meI have no limits on myselfThis is not a gameD/s is not playThis is why I never start anything that has an endingI would rather go without than be caged emotionallyNever ask me to share, sharing is for desperadosLeave me alone, go back to your wife, or girlfriend or “sub”Submission is
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Today I remembered how much I love being a spanking model and how much happier I am getting something out of it for myself too. I had so much fun again today in London with a new friend, and maybe that type of pro spanking session was always safest and perfect for me. I have
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ok I’m gonna say this at last. I am not used to playing with Tops at parties or ever, I am just used to Dominance. Last night when I was over someone’s knee he quizzed me on what I wanted and I got confused by it. I have never negotiated a scene and don’t know
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I need youYou make me come alive and I’m reinventedI want to bottle you up and open you on my darkest daysAnd pour you into my skin like the sweetest lotion I wish I could close my eyes, and today will always feel like the first day of my lifeAnd I will remember to live
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So my profile has always been too long, and it was recommended to me to do some writings and link to them if anyone wants to know more about me. Here goes…. I’m 5ft 7, size 12-14 (UK)/ 8-10 (US) and my BMI is normal in the average/middle of the range I have 2 Professional
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I’ve been asked recently what my needs are and I am pretty rubbish at saying. It’s easy to list the fetish ones, they are on my fetish list, but I was being pretty brave and silly and adventurous in there without risking too much! I just saw these rather cool online tests in Fetlife and
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== Results from bdsmtest.org == 100% Brat100% Boy/Girl96% Slave91% Submissive58% Experimentalist52% Masochist47% Ageplayer44% Pet39% Rope bunny33% Primal (Prey)20% Non-monogamist15% Degradee7% Vanilla1% Exhibitionist1% Voyeur0% Primal (Hunter)0% Rigger0% Daddy/Mommy0% Dominant0% Degrader0% Owner0% Master/Mistress0% Sadist0% Switch See my results in detail: http://bdsmtest.org/r/6473944
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I did something pretty huge for me this weekend. I wrote a long post in Fetlife asking for ideas from other people in the scene. Well..hmmm..it was actually an accident, but now i’m kinda glad it was! https://fetlife.com/groups/600/group_posts/11529118 I started writing it as a post in my favourite group for Middles, but then I changed
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Yayyyy yes I did it!I told my parents I missed them last night…and my small plate of beans on toast and glass of soya milk for supper before bedtime, my French lessons when I’m in my school uniform sitting at a desk with a PC audio tape on (I’m learning intermediate French), having a wonderful
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I don’t write much but I have to say something about something I read a lot about in here, body shaming and size. I love people and I tell them that regardless of whether they think they need to lose some weight because they want to, or because they are happy and settled as they
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I learnt a new word yesterday. I’m a total ‘Sapiophile’. I never knew there was such a big word to describe what I have always loved most in people, but it explains my choices and what makes me happiest way before anything physical. If I knew the word for it before it would have saved
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I had a great time again at BBW 2017. This is what I wrote in Fetlife: This was a brilliant weekend and i had so much fun! I’m in a different place now after a sad last year and some times before where I got too involved in the wrong situations that completely messed with
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I’ve not been much fun in here lately because I’ve been so busy since;my husband passed away in September after two months in hospital, and I had to sell the house, move home and furnish my brand new rented flat and arrange all the funeral stuff. Watching someone you love slowly die every day you
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It feels like deja vu today!!Before I was in the scene I had sore bottoms for private domestic discipline and it was all I knew and part of my real life. Then I was invited into the scene when someone saw my photos and was like my Svengali and soon I was in films. I
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Just a note to update my scene friends seeing as i’m posting vanilla updates to family and friends. Mr Bishop (my significant other Michael, aka MtheGM..but is not on Fetlife) had a heart attack 6 weeks ago and is not able to be mended so they are looking at short term care which could be
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I was just loving a fantastic writing The distance (or difference) between want and need. Once again I don’t want to be the one to write a longer comment than the original post because it’s a wonderful post about someone else’s feelings, so I am writing what I feel here for playback to myself in
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I just saw a question in a group I belong to and wanted to write about it here. I’ve had an epiphany, a true realisation, and really do feel it was all meant to be this way like a birthright. This was the post:What’s up with princesses? “Some girls identify as princesses, and I’m wondering
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I wrote this in my new blog yesterday, as a statement of my wants and needs. It was something I always wanted to say but never could. I never ask or tell or explain my feelings about all of this stuff, and it has gotten me into all kinds of misunderstandings and relationships that were
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I never used to swear, well maybe a bit now and then by accident or to myself, and when I ever did I got punished so I really don’t swear at all and am not used to it. Most of my life I have had some kind of rules or guardian and I was brought
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