Thoughts and Musings
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Last week was a big wake up call for me. Having started doing sessions again I hadn’t realised how much the ‘scene’ had changed, which is pretty much in line with society in general. Everything is so prescriptive, it has sucked the life out of fun and spontaneity and indeed any kind of going with
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I was told to only “focus on what you CAN do”. So for the past four months I’ve: The alternative was to wallow and let my chronic blepharospasm condition ground me like it can to some others, who never go outside or watch TV but just sleep all day. Now I only remember it when
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So, after another hiatus and medication since my last post, I’m better again health wise. The downtime gave me a lot of thinking time. Amongst listening to a lot of music, my daily calm app, audible books and occasional perving of spanking sites I decided I probably don’t need to be a professional spanking model
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When i say “I love you” which i have done to lots of people i care about including chosen family and occasionally in spanko relationships, it doesn’t mean I’m IN love. I think Donkey even says he loves Shrek, or Eddie Murphy said it to Judge Reinhold in BHC? So when someone I had to
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3 more weeks and I’m free from my vanilla job to do anything I want, when I want, with no ties or responsibilities yayy! I’m lucky to have good friends close, but love my own space and life too and have no idea where it will take me. It’s very different to anything I’ve done
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I was going to put this in my last blog post but it would have been way too long, so I scheduled it and split it over two days. Someone asked me this week what kind of rules I had when I had Disciplinary and Mentoring relationships. I found them on a page I did
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I’m so glad to see the back of 2023! I pushed myself way too hard, moved miles away on a whim and it’s been full of every emotion possible but I’m still here for you and happier today! I launched my Loyal Fans site and uploaded the first films to Spanking Library so I am
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This month has been amazing. Not only have I managed to get myself spanked for all kinds of things and into scrapes that even I’m impressed with, but some of my scene friends from my days in London turned up yesterday aka Josie and Jadie. Last time we hung out together was a late night
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I have had a long break (of course I ran away to my palace in Tuvalu again to think) and have come up with some decisions. The observations I have made about myself over the last 18 months of lockdown: I am good enough. I don’t have to dumb myself down and let anyone control
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Since I last wrote in January, a lot has happened. I started with a lockdown friend (who I have known for ages and ages), we became a bubble and grew and grew, so now I have a friend who is a bit like a Daddy type to help look after me. For a long time,
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Since my last post, so much has happened, not in terms of spanking activity because of the Covid lockdown restrictions, but in terms of where I am now compared with the past 12 months. Almost a year ago, I was rushed into hospital for my tummy operation, having recently gotten myself back into the scene
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I fell out with my parents recently, it was my decision cos I felt neglected. I asked them to post my things back that just came. Now I’m very sad. Because we met in the ‘scene’ I will never know if they really were my parents and loved me or not, sometimes I wish I
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I have lots of spanking implements at home that have either been left with me, passed on, or bought as presents at events such as the BBB (Birmingham Bizarre Bazaar) , the LAM (London Alternative Market) or at other parties in the UK and US. I think I have enough to cater for most spankos,
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The coronavirus lockdown (which for me has been a continual extension of the 5 weeks grounding indoors after my tummy operation in January) has given me the chance to chat more, and get some unrequested ‘feedback’ and observations from people I have met in the past. I remember being told many times that I was
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My ManyVids store is now open and I kicked off by uploading five of ‘The Trouble with Emma’ films that I managed to find and remaster. It was a laborious task and I broke all of my old behavior rules and totally burned myself out in two days to make it happen. But, it’s done,
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Whilst I’m out of spanking action until around May, ironically I’m getting more messages that usual about sessions and I’ve had to cancel some things. It’s utterly angsty having to say “no”, and sit and watch all the fun from the sidelines like a crocked athlete 🙁 This week I was invited to attend a
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My blog this time is a mixed bag. I will bullet point a few things without the gory details as it’s been a scary difficult time, but I have hopes I can be totally fixed soon for the first time in two years. On reading.. I’ve never been a good reader unless there is a
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Bishy’s blog today comes from hospital. I’ve had what my GP thought was gastro enteritis since Friday with tummy ache and vomiting. In fact my last meal was Friday so as I write I’ve had no food in a week and very little liquid. As you can see my face is gaunt and I’ve lost
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I’ve invested almost 6 months so far working with Red Moon Rising Media. Initially I was approached to just appear in some films as a model, but the situation changed and I’ve been totally involved in contributing many of my ideas; as a spanking model/actress, graphics and media creator, scriptwriter, film director, camera person, website
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When I used to write Bishy’s Blog MKI, I had so many people saying they related and felt as if they knew me. Apparently it was honest and from my heart (which it always is), and although I’m ‘Emma Bishop’, they said they got a good insight into the life of a spanking model. More
