I was told to only “focus on what you CAN do”. So for the past four months I’ve:

• Got an inhaler for the asthma I had no idea I had for two years which gave me chronic fatigue and days in bed
• Rejoined and challenged myself in the gym to be at Sportsperson level so now I go regularly three times a week
• Lost a lot of weight and toned up a bit so my clothes fit better
• Thrown myself back into spanking modelling and its like I never left,
• and travelled and partied all over like it’s my first time around and I’m 18 again!

The alternative was to wallow and let my chronic blepharospasm condition ground me like it can to some others, who never go outside or watch TV but just sleep all day. Now I only remember it when I have a rare day in bed to recover, like tomorrow, and then I go again with a smile and the energy and ambition of a child in my head.

I never usually talk about this because it’s boring and irrelevant to the fun spanking community of friends I love in here, and I always used to think we should be here to play and laugh and entertain each other. But today I feel strong, and I feel proud that ‘This Girl Can’ talk about it, and carry on surviving and fighting, and trying to entertain too sometimes. It might eventually all catch up with me, but by that time I hope I will have had another huge ball of adventures and memories.